Merritt Kopas
Merritt

Yeah, so, my name is Merritt Kopas and I've been in indie games for

about three years. I live in Toronto and I'm 28.

I make games on my own, I release them on my own, and I release most of

them for free and most of them are really small. And so that's the space

that I've occupied for the last few years.

David

Tell me a little bit about Forest Ambassador.

Merritt

Yeah, so Forest Ambassador is a site

that I run that curates videogames and it has a really specific focus in

that it's looking to grab games that are really short and are playable

who don't have a couple of decades of experience of playing games. So

you don't really need a lot of games literacy to play them.

It was started with the intention of creating a space for people who

were maybe interested in games but sort of felt put off or intimidated

by how technically complicated a lot of them today are.

David

Do you think you're executing successfully on your plan for Forest Ambassador?

Merritt

Yeah, I mean, I think the site has been fairly successful. **I'm

concerned sometimes that regardless of how hard you try it is hard to

break out of the bubble of games. I think sometimes games people think

that we're a lot more influential or important than we are.** I'm not

sure whether the site is reaching people who are already in that space

or whether it is really penetrating out beyond that bubble and getting

to people who wouldn't otherwise see this stuff.

David

Tell me a little bit more about the bubbles and games thinking they are a little more influential than they really are.

Merritt

Yeah, yeah. I think this can happen in any really small tightly knit

community or network, but I see this dynamic where we've gotten more

mainstream coverage of videogames over the last few years that isn't

from a purely consumer standpoint or isn't from a purely moral panic

standpoint. And so you have pieces in The Times and in The Guardian

and you have more and more outlets starting to do games journalism and

games criticism and treating the medium like any other medium like film

or literature and I think what happens is that people start to think,

"This is it. Games are the medium of the 21st century!"

Whether or not you believe that, I think there is this weird optimism

within games that thinks we have a lot more influence than we really do.

I think the majority of people's experiences with games are still *Candy

Crush* on their phone or, like Tetris -- or they think of games as,

like, Halo on. [***Most people aren't playing the indie

darlings***](http://www.nodontdie.com/adam-mayes/) **that are celebrated

within the community of designers and enthusiasts. That stuff doesn't

really reach out as far as people think that it does.**

**The relationship that people have with games outside of the community

I think is still very different. I think it's still very much like a

thing that you do on your phone while you're at the bus and not a

meaningful experience you have.**

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David

Do you agree with me that, like, the "indie" space itself is also a nebulous thing?

Merritt

Yeah, no, I totally agree that -- yeah, the indie space, that we use

this word "indie" all the time and it's not really ever clear what that

means and maybe it was more clear a few years ago.

David

[Laughs.] I mean, I so rarely use the word just to be able to talk about it.

Merritt

Sure.

David

Because it feels incredibly nebulous.

Merritt

Yeah. It's like, what is that describing? Is that describing the

Vlambeers of the world? The people who are doing successful, fairly

traditional games? Is it describing Notch? Is it Jonathan Blow? Is it,

like, women who are making games and releasing them for free? Like,

**the idea that all these people belong to the same community or label

is just -- it erases so much. It just takes out all this diversity and

renders it into this monolithic thing that is not really real. It also

erases a lot of history, too, because people have been making games on

their own for decades, right?**

And **we've just started using this term "indie" as this kind of brand

that really just forgets all that history of homebrew and of hobbyists

and all this stuff that people have been doing for so much longer than

we tend to think.**

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David

Yeah, I mean, literally just before I hopped on Skype with you, someone who I interviewed before tweeted at both of us, "Well, why is indie bad now?"

Merritt

[Laughs.]

David

I basically said what you said: It's not it's like a binary. It's not like it's bad. It's just short-sighted because the entire industry used to be "indie." It doesn't get much more indie than, like, going to Radio Shack with a plastic bag with diskettes and being like, "Can I, like, leave this here in case somebody might want it?"

Merritt

[Laughs.]

David

[Laughs.] So, I guess as this term has taken hold, what does it seem to mean? You mentioned a bit, but what are all the ways you see it being refracted back to you? What are all the different interpretations you see?

Merritt

Sure. **I see it becoming a brand and I think this is a problem with any

term that crystallizes and gains meaning**, which is why artists have

all always kept churning through those, right, **because there's always

the risk that it calcifies*.*** But with "indie" especially, it's been

taken up the biggest corporations in games now to sort of signify this,

like, alternative quality.

Like, **you can go on any of the major games stores online, now, whether

it's Sony's or Microsoft's or whatever and there's, like, an "indies"

section. That, to me, is kind of strange in ways. [Laughs.] I mean,

it's good for those folks who are getting paid through those outlets,

but also presenting a very narrow slice of independent work as "indie."

Again: just misrepresents what's going on there.**

**And also, I think the other effect it has is silencing those

conversations about difference in that someone can always feel like,

"Well, we're all indie developers. We're all in this together." And it's

not really clear what we're in this against or for.** [Laughs.]

It's sort of a contentless ideology, right? It's just sort of this

banner that can be waved to say, like, "Look, we're all indies! We're

all doing independent games stuff!"

But the kinds of things people are doing are so wildly divergent that

it's just meaningless to and try to use this one term to catch them all.

David

Yeah. Do you think there was a tipping point of how the term "indie" coalesced into what it seems to mean today?

Merritt

I think a lot of people point to games like Braid. I think in the mid-

to late-2000's, when you had games like Braid, games like *World of

Goo* popping up on mainstream consoles. Like, you've got World of Goo

on the Wii and things like that. I think that's when people get this

idea of a capital "I" indie of, like, you have this cadre of elite,

independent artists who are pursuing their own vision and making work

that is not exactly what you would see out of mainstream games.

And then you have the whole Indie Game: The Movie narrative, which

sells people this idea of, like, if you work hard enough and have a

strong enough dream, then you'll be swimming in money, too, just like

Jonathan Blow. [Laughs.]

David

You, too, can be taunted by rappers.

Merritt

Yeah. Yeah. And sleep fitfully atop your piles of money.

David

[Laughs.]

Merritt

Yeah, I think in the mid-2000's is when I see that happening, because

people were doing [***this

work before then***](http://www.nodontdie.com/jeff-silva/)**, but they

really weren't thinking of themselves as indie in the same way, I think.

What happens, then, is you really have this drive to professionalize and

commercialize as well, because hobbyists have been doing this kind of

work forever, and it's never necessarily been a profit-seeking kind of

work.**

I mean, in some cases, I think it has been a stepping stone toward that.

But, really, what happens, I think, **in the mid-2000's and later on is

that indie becomes a dream of success.** **With Indie Game: The Movie,

people start to think, like, "I can pick up GameMaker and make a game

that will get me rich and famous."**

Which is really scary that people believe that. [Laughs.] Because, I

mean, to some extent that is true. That does happen for some people. But

it's totally random, right? **It may as well just be completely

luck-based because there's so many people doing that work** and the

number of people who are going to be picked up out of that and who are

going to reap the rewards are just so small.

David

So, not accounting for quality, which is subjective, what are the factors you think actually contribute to an independently made game's success?

Merritt

I think the main things that I see as contributing to a game's success

-- I mean, obviously there's a luck factor involved because there's this

mountain of work being produced everyday. But beyond that, I see this

sort of fetishizing of this idea of "cool" in games where a work has to

sort of fit into a particular kind of aesthetic.

So, if it's, like, very minimalist in a way that is kind of flashy or

attracting; if it can be played at kind of festival settings; if it

really grabs your attention. So, work that is very shareable on Twitter.

I think this is one of the things that contributed to the success of

indie games over the last few years, going back to Phil Fish's work,

which is that the screenshots really jumped out at people, right? So, a

game that's maybe text-based is not going to necessarily do that. It's

not as easily shareable.

But something that has really flashy screen shots or that can grab

people's attention really quickly, I think that's become more and more

important because people are discovering more of this work through

Twitter and similar kinds of social media lately.

David

That's something I've long pondered but never actually discussed with somebody else: When we think about games that get successful or noticed, these are typically games that are, like you said, they show well in settings where they have to grab someone quickly.

This may be an obvious question, but do you think the nature of that impacts the types of games people try to make to the extent that they're not even really making the thing they would really want to make? They're just making something they think will hopefully get noticed in that context?

Merritt

I mean, I do think that a lot of the people who do get really successful

are the people who happen to want to make those kinds of things.

[Laughs.]

David

[Laughs.]

Merritt

The kind of people who really love making roguelikes and really love

making really tightly made action games with lots of screen-shake.

I think that's one reason why they're successful, because if you're

trying to do something for mercenary ends and you're not enjoying it,

that can end up being more difficult than trying to do something that

you're actually enjoying.

But, yeah, I think it definitely does shape the work that gets created.

I think that's why you see piles of zombie shooters on Steam, I think

that's why you see roguelike after roguelike after roguelike, I think

that's why every game is procedurally generated: Because people see the

things that are successful and there's a kind of patterning effect or a

path dependence, right? One thing happens to get successful maybe for a

totally random reason, and then they start to dissect it and say, "Okay,

what are the qualities of this thing and how can I reproduce that to get

the same results?

David

What relationships seem to matter for people making games independently for them to get noticed -- and we'll get into what success means next -- but just for them to be ignited?

Merritt

I mean, it does seem -- and this gets into difficult territory, right?

Because it's easy to point to relationships between --

David

And this is not about "ethics in videogame journalism" or whatever bullshit. I'm just talking, legitimately, for anyone who is trying to create things for the Internet today there are so many other people trying to make the same things. So, relationships matter everywhere. I'm not saying --

Merritt

No, yeah. No, no, no, no.

Those relationships are critical to me, and I see the development of

this kind of -- there is a scene, right? Or there are multiple scenes,

and this is something I don't see people talking about as a problem: But

these kinds of scenes of work that shows well at festivals and people

who run those festivals and a lot of them happen to be men. [Laughs.]

So I think a lot of about the ways that **this development of an

aesthetic of, like, cool, alternative videogames is kind of politically

contentless. It's about particular genres or kind of imagery that is

attractive to people.**

And I think there is these sort of networks that develop around those

kind of work and the people who are covering them, and people maybe want

to point to women journalists covering other women and making games and

saying that that is a huge problem but really I see this more in terms

of the ways that male-dominated scenes perpetuate themselves. But I

guess, yeah, if you are a man, it's super-important to know those other

guys who are running that stuff, right? I don't think that's necessarily

enough.

And I think sometimes it's easy to get confused because I think what

happens sometimes is people happen to find success and it sort of is

just a semi-random thing, and then they sort of get pulled into these

networks and the cause and effect isn't always so clear, you know?

David

Yeah, I was gonna ask, like, do you get the sense that people who are lucky in games know that they're lucky?

Merritt

I think they do. [Laughs.] I think some of them do.

Obviously to say that someone is lucky, to me, doesn't diminish the fact

that they may be talented or hardworking. It's just to say that so are a

lot of people. There are always just as many people working just as hard

as you and that's where luck comes in, that you are the one of that

crowd of people who are putting the work in who happens to get plucked

out of that.

In conversations that I've had with people who do that stuff, I think

some of them are? [Laughs.] Probably not. Not all of them. **I think

there is a belief among some and this maybe comes from the meritocratic

beliefs that come with tech and that have sort of trickled into games

that, like, if they're at the top it's because they are the best and

they're doing the kinds of work that no one else could possibly do.**

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David

Have videogames ever been a meritocracy, though?

Merritt

I mean, I don't think so. It's -- I mean, what artistic field has been,

right? I think once money gets in, definitely things start to get more

complicated, but even before that, the kinds of people whose work is

being shared is always shaped by social factors. And to a some extent,

the Internet lets you circumvent some of those things, but not entirely.

But there are other people who believe -- and I think **as games become

more profitable and they become bigger and bigger and some of those

beliefs from tech, the sort of technolibertarianism trickles into games,

you do have people who are basically the equivalent of successful guys

in tech who believe they got where they are by working hard and that

they're irreplaceable and they're doing really critical work. Maybe they

are doing interesting things, but I think that their sense of self is

really inflated by their position.** [Laughs.]

David

[Laughs.]

Merritt

Not naming any names. [Laughs.]

David

No, of course not. And I'm not asking you to. I'm just curious what the membrane is we're all wading through.

Merritt

Yeah.

David

So you can speak to a different scale of scope of games with your project. I'm curious: In general, and including, the things that you curate, what does lower-case "s" success in videogames look like for those people? We'll get to capital "s" next, but --

Merritt

[Laughs.] Yeah, yeah. I think at this point just having your work

covered can feel like success to some people, and I think that that is a

kind of success because -- again, **we've been talking about the

discovery problem and having someone sift through, like, itch.io or

Gamejolt or whatever and finding your work and playing it and then

caring about it enough to write about it? I think that can feel like a

pretty major victory to people.**

**And I think if you are not in it to get rich and if you're not in it

to be, like, the most famous game developer, then that is a success.**

That means someone has found your work and it's reached them and it's

meant something to them and then they're going to broadcast that and

hopefully more people will have that same kind of experience.

David

With your project, have you been able to make connections like that for people?

Merritt

Yeah. I think **what happens with a lot of these sites that are talking

about games or that are sharing smaller games is that they feed off each

other a little bit, and I think of this as mostly beneficial to

everyone. So, I'll post a game sometimes and it'll show up somewhere

else with a deeper write-up about it, and that means this author is

getting all this exposure, right? Which is pretty cool.**

I guess I sometimes forget that the site that I run has an audience and

so sometimes I'll get an author writing back to me being like, "Thank

you so much for sharing your work and so many people saw it and this is

just such a great feeling." It's like, **"Oh yeah, it is hard to get

your work seen if you're not the sort of person who doesn't already have

an audience."**

Like, it is hard to break into that. It's a cool feeling when I'm able

to do that.

David

What do you think capital "S" success --

Merritt

Right.

**I think the dream of a lot of people is, "This is your job and this is

how you're supporting yourself." Like, you don't have a day job, you are

making games full-time, and probably -- I think for some people, the

question of fame versus material success is -- they've sort of wrapped

it up into this one idea of "making it," right? So the idea of having a

following and also being materially secure, but what I think a lot of

people don't realize is that those things rarely go hand in hand. That a

lot of people who have enormous followings on Twitter or elsewhere are

destitute or at least not wealthy by any stretch of the imagination.**

And a lot of people who are doing really well for themselves in games

and making a lot of money aren't the ones who are like, "Oh, they're

being personalities on the Internet. Right?"

And so people have this idea that, "Oh, I'm gonna make it and then I'll

get the followers and then I'll get the money." [Laughs.] It's like,

"Maybe if you are super-lucky, if you strike at the right time, if

you're working in the right genre, if you have the right aesthetics --

all these things. Then maybe. Maybe that'll happen."

But the number of people that that happens to is so small that this idea

of capital "S" success is just so illusory.

David

Popularity, if you can amass that in the independent space, like, nebulous though it may be: What does that seem to actually empower people to accomplish?

Merritt

I think it depends. I think if you are -- **I think a lot of time what

getting popular in an indie-game space means is very little. I think --

again, people overestimate the breadth of the field and they see being

invited to speak at an event or getting an article about one of your

works as this enormous function of power when it really is not.** I

think maybe if you are the kind of person who is making really

traditional games or not so traditional games but things that still fit

pretty comfortable within that label, and maybe if you are white, and

maybe if you're a man, or all of these different things, then maybe

you'll be invited into other kinds of circles.

Or maybe you'll start making connections in the mainstream industry.

Maybe you'll start getting deals to have your work ported to other

consoles. But that seems so rare for people that I don't think -- like,

**because this field is so small, success within it doesn't actually

mean much unless you're actually able to transfer it outside of that.**

David

Do you perceive people in their quest for lowercase "S" or capital "S" self-editing whether it's in their works or in the arena of social media to maybe be more appealing or amenable to perceived gatekeepers? I hate to ask you to get inside the heads of people you maybe don't know, but maybe you have gleaned this from conversations with people -- but again, don't name names.

Merritt

[Laughs.]

David

But maybe through some of the authors you know through your project or elsewhere in the community, where sometimes they say, "I really wish So And So would start talking about my games."

I don't know. Basically I'm just asking: Does this feel like high school? [Laughs.] That's basically the question.

Merritt

Yeah, and I think any kind of small culture is going to, right? I think

people definitely self-edit and the people who get really good at that

are the ones who are more palatable to a wider audience, right? I've

certainly found myself doing that, too. I have cultivated a very

specific Twitter persona that may seem very open and honest, but it

really is a brand, right? That's what you have to do if you want to

build up that kind of success, which is a fairly damaging and difficult

process. But the people who are most successful are generally the ones

who are able to have a powerful filter or the ones who don't need to

really have that in the first place because maybe they don't have the

kinds of resentments that other people do by virtue of not being male or

not being white or whatever.

But certainly those people, like, people in the position of facing

structural oppression are -- you have to learn to either keep that stuff

to yourself and only speak to it with people you trust or else you have

to be prepared for the fact that people are going to be upset with you

for talking about it and that it may end up sabotaging you.

David

I have seen some developers who -- you know, you end up just attracting people into your orbit on social media. I have seen some individuals be -- like, the way that they want to brand themselves is talking about how much they hate branding themselves. They're uncomfortable owning it.

Merritt

Mmhmm.

David

Basically they're on the beginning of the journey of going through that process that you're talking about. I'm certainly familiar myself and I know a lot of other people who have been through it, but you used the word "damaging." What is damaging about going through that process?

Merritt

I think **the danger is that you come to see that brand as yourself, as

the sum total of who you are, and the more time you spend doing that

work, the harder it can get to pull apart your public persona from your

entire life. I see that happening to some people where, like, I think it

can get to your head if you're not careful. Like, this sense of, "Oh, I

am this really cool person on Twitter with thousands of followers and

everyone loves me."**

**I think you really do have to, like, have people around you who are

calling you on your bullshit or you do have to be really good at knowing

that doesn't mean you're a good person or an incredible person,

necessarily. It just means that people like the kinds of weird jokes or

content or whatever that you post on Twitter.** [Laughs.]

David

[Laughs.]

Merritt

It is what it is, right? Like, that can be really great, but that can't

be who you are entirely as a person.

And I think people who do try to just be their Twitter brand start to

break down and that can get really messy and horrible really quickly.

David

I feel like part of what you just said would have been a laugh line on a sitcom a decade ago: "I'm really cool on the Internet." But today in these circles, it seems to be something that people violently strive for. What do you think has shifted where this is a thing people want so badly?

Merritt

I think there's a few things going on there, right? One thing, and

something we forget a lot, is **that tech platforms want us to want

that. Right? It's in Twitter's interest for us to want to be

Twitter-popular and to get favs and to have tons of followers because

that perpetuates their platform and, like, it's good for them as a

business. I think we forget that too often and we treat and similar

kinds of social media as just these neutral environments where our

interactions take place but they're absolutely not.**

And I think maybe the other thing is that people see this as a

substitute for traditional kinds of success, right? So, you were saying

10 years ago this would be like a joke. Well, what's happened in the

past 10 years, right?

David

The economy.

Merritt

Thinking right around the time that Braid and similar games are coming

out, that's around 2008. And **there's this kind of shift away from

these -- I think people realize, "Oh, I can't have the things that

traditionally signify success to me. I maybe came from a middle-class

family, but I can't have those things anymore because I sort of chose

this life of writing or making games or whatever, and so I need

something else to substitute for that."**

**One thing that can do that is the sense of having a following or being

micro-famous, having a few thousand Twitter followers or whatever. And

of course, yeah, like I was saying, platforms like Twitter are really

happy people feel that way. [Laughs.] And they're really happy to

encourage that feeling, too, of investment in those platforms.**

**So I think that's sort of the thing there is people searching for the

substitute for traditional forms or signifiers of success that seem out

of reach now.**

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David

What are the types of behavior you tend to see out in the independent videogames space?

Merritt

Sure. Yeah, I think the one major dynamic that I've seen over the last

few years and that I don't see talked about very often is the one I

mentioned earlier, which is **this kind of sense of "cool" around games

that sees itself as "alternative" and "indie" just by virtue of it being

small or whatever.**

**But the kinds of content that are being created in those spaces are

often not super-dissimilar from traditional games.** But I think there

is this sense of, "Yeah, we're doing cool work. It's, like, outside of

the mainstream. It's being shown in festivals in a desert or whatever."

**And the kinds of people that I see congregating around that space are

fairly traditional-looking games people**, right? So that's a major

thing I see.

And then **there is this other strange dynamic of the interaction

between academics and designers or non-academic critics, which is a very

complicated and fraught relationship.** But as games have

professionalized, there is also this growing number of people whose job

it is it to professionally write about them in an academic way and to do

them within the apparatus of higher education, which comes with all its

own complicated rituals and networks. But **the kinds of dynamics that

exist between academics and non-academics are really strange because

there's, like, this power dynamic. But it's not the kind of power that

people think. Like, people tend to think professors have enormous social

power when, really -- it's like games, right?** [Laughs.] **No one

outside the academy really listens to them.**

David

[Laughs.]

Merritt

So there are all these weird things happening with games. I mean, I say

it again: They're still small, but there have been little bursts of

growth. And there has been this expansion, of even independent games and

with that comes all these weird, new interactions at the margins of that

space.

David

Why do you think some people in the audience for videogames take them so seriously? Why do you think some act in ways that are so entitled over entertainment products they consume? I think it’s reasonable to feel entitled to a working product, but that attitude carries over into a lot of other things, and very aggressively.

Merritt

I think when you grow up with something, and especially when it’s

something that you’ve built up an identity around, any perceived changes

to that thing can feel like an existential threat. Like, especially if

you grew up as a dude who was picked on or failed to live up to the

ideals of masculinity, and you got into games as this refuge from all

that, which I totally sympathize with, then this is like, the one space

you get to control, y’know? And then when you hear about changes to this

space that’s brought you so much comfort and pleasure you start to

worry, you get nervous, you feel threatened, you lash out. Which doesn’t

justify it, but like, I think there are really deep roots to this stuff.

David

None of this stuff is totally in a bubble. Like, it’s also part of the same world that thinks Donald Trump could maybe be president and that also hated not just Skyler White but the actor who portrayed her onBreaking Bad. How does that sort of stuff connect or interlock with videogames?

Merritt

Like, all that stuff is kind of preying on these exact insecurities and

issues, right? There’s this powerful convergence of economic and social

factors that makes young white men think that they’re way less powerful

than they are, that makes them feel threatened by women and men of

colour and everyone who isn’t them. And maybe they are less powerful

than they feel like they should be, than they’ve been told they should

be. And smart, awful people know how to use that feeling. The same guys

who are organizing hate campaigns against women in games, who throw fits

whenever the industry inches towards something a little better,

**they’re buying into these theories about how women secretly control

the world. And videogames have not exactly done a whole lot to challenge

that.**

David

What do you think the industry or media could be doing to help combat some of the toxicity around videogames?

Merritt

I really think we need to keep moving away from this idea of an industry

-- so much games media is still this enthusiast press that’s about

recommending experiences to players. My friend Matthew Burns has this really great essay where he talks about this, how games journalists have basically been these figures that have propped up the idea of [*gamers as consumer

kings*](http://www.magicalwasteland.com/notes/2014/8/22/the-king-and-his-objects). And I think there’s been some heartening developments here, like Leigh Alexander’s Offworld.

I want to see more media talking about games outside of a “should you

buy this product?” angle, more nontraditional media talking about

strange playful experiences and not just like, personal essays about

games people loved when they were kids. Not to discount that stuff, but

I feel like so much attention is still disproportionately paid to the

big stuff, partly because that’s where all the money is -- I’m at a

place where I’m really jaded about games right now for a lot of reasons

but there’s beautiful and surprising work being done all the time

outside of like, the industry and I really see that as the way forward.

David

These are going to be two strange questions.

Merritt

Mmhmm.

David

Do you consider yourself popular?

Merritt

[Laughs.]

David

I gave you fair warning.

Merritt

Yeah, you did say that it would be strange. I guess that depends.

I'm grateful that I have the kind of following that I do. It's humbling

and deeply strange some days. And it's very strange, too, to be the kind

of person who is sort of micro-famous and then out in the world no one

knows who I am. And in a sense, that's kinda cool, right? Because it's

like being a superhero: You can just take off your mask and go out into

the world and you can just totally blend in. But I think **it's

frustrating sometimes in that people tend to assume that if you have any kind of platform that you have enormous power.**

And from the context -- or from the position of someone who doesn't

really have any kind of backing or following on social media, it's easy

to look up at someone with a few thousand followers and think of them

as, like, the establishment. And that's been a very strange experience.

So, I guess sometimes I do.

Which is still weird to me.

David

What do you think videogames have achieved?

Merritt

I think at their best, games enable kinds of play and kinds of

interactions that wouldn't be possible without them and that wouldn't

even be possible in non-digital games, right? So, I think having

networked interactions and being able to connect people around the world

through different kinds of play is really incredible. All that stuff is

great, and I could also talk about all the negative things that I think

games have achieved and why I'm kind of ambivalent about them.

I could talk about the ways that games have interfaced with military

industrial complexes, with the ways that games have participated in

really horrible global chains of capitalism -- like, things like

conflict minerals, and I could talk the ways that I think a lot of games

encourage competition and conflict in a way that I don't actually think

is healthy as a release valve but that just really encourages those

kinds of things.

So, for me, it's really a mixed thing and maybe that's one reason why

there feels like there always be a cap on how successful I can get in

games because I'm not one of those people who is able to cheerlead. I'm

not one of those people who can stand up in front of a crowd and say

that games have made people better because I don't wholeheartedly

believe that.

And I don't think that games are the media of the 21st century. I think

that they're a form like any other and that some of the things that

they've brought have been really positive and some of them have been

really horrible.